I’m kind of overwhelmed with this fibromyalgia thing and that’s all I want to write about. But honestly, I visited some other fibro blogs and just found them, well, whiney. And I know my posts would be that way too because all I want to do is scream about being in pain and lament about how I don’t know what to do and discuss how overwhelmed I am by the medical and non-medical “treatments” out there. (Probably sounding whiney already.) People have offered their help and I don’t want to take it because I like being self-sufficient, self-productive, in control of my life, my family, my home. My attitude isn’t so good right now either and I can be a bitch when I’m not feeling well. And even with people I love and who I know love me, I don’t want to talk about it although it’s the only thing on my mind.

So if you know me, please don’t bring it up. Don’t ask me how I’m feeling because the answer will change and I don’t want to lie when things are bad and I’ll feel like I want to lie cause I don’t want to sound like a whiner. And I don’t want to say I’m fine when things change all the time and maybe you’ll be expecting me to say “fine” the next time and I don’t want to lie. ‘Cause I don’t have this under control and I’m feeling out of control. And it sucks.