I was going to post about this article that I first saw on Alas, A Blog, but then it was time for bed for my two year old. We’ve been going through it the past few weeks, with refusing to go to bed and then waking at extreme hours of the morning. So, since they were home with me today, I tried to re-establish the bedtime routine and make naps productive, as I had the feeling that he was quite over-tired these past few days. So the nap went great, no crazy crying and he slept for two hours. That was from 12:30 – 2:30pm. Then around 7, I started the bedtime routine of bath, teeth brushing, reading two books, and then lights out. He seemed to go down okay, allowed me to put the blanket on him and give him a kiss goodnight. I was able to leave the room, walk downstairs, sit down, and then BAM!! We hear him run across the floor to his room, switch on the light, and start SCREAMING at the top of his lungs. He’s been going strong for the last 20 minutes, perhaps with one minute breaks here and there. He’s opening all the drawers in the room, probably just tearin’ up. Just when you think he’s stopped, it starts again. Last night, he went an hour at 3:30am.

But I don’t know what to do, and it’s really bothering me. I am exhausted, and I’m MEAN when I’m really tired. Every little thing gets under my skin. On top of that, he screams like somebody’s killing him. I often think, living in this community with lots of crunchy granola moms (that’s not an insult, I love these moms), that somebody is going to think I’m just the worst mother ever. And maybe I should be concerned about him since he’s screaming like this, but I am 105% sure that there’s NOTHING wrong with him except that he’s not doing what HE WANTS to be doing right now.

This screaming happened earlier today too, when my husband came home and I needed an hour nap due to last night’s shenanigans. He acted a fool trying to come upstairs with me, and when he did, he just wanted to be in the bed with me, although he wouldn’t sleep, which was the point of me going upstairs. So since he interrupted my nap – it actually never happened – I’m probably just double pissed that I can’t actually go to sleep because I have this crazy thing where I cannot sleep if my children are crying. My husband has no problem.

Well, as I’ve been writing this, it sounds as if he’s given it up and gone to bed. The light is still on – I’m afraid to open the door to turn it off cause it will probably just start him off again. My husband will do it later. So I guess all is okay since it’s only 8:12pm. But I wanted to be in bed at 7:30pm. Hopefully he’s sleep all night. Cause this is really not going to work when the quarter begins. Not. Going. To. Work. Thanks for listening to my ramblings which I am sure are all over the place cause I’m really tired.